depending on others

I absolutely hate that I have to depend on ppl to take me and take me there. I wish I could come up with the money to get my car fixed so I do not have to depend on anyone to take me anywhere. I could get a better paying job if I had my car, I could get my kids down here faster if I had my car so I could get another job. Life really sucks right now and I dont know how to change it. Part of me wants to go back to Ohio but thats only because its easier to go back to what I know than to stay here and fight for what I want. All this stress is taking its toll on me. I feel sick to my stomach constantly and have a permanent headache from worrying so much. Normally I can find a way out of the situation that I have gotten myself into but this one is different than most. Its been forever since I have been this dependent on anyone else and I am so independent, its so hard to ask for help.