boredom

Now I remember why I didnt like living alone I am soooo BORED its not funny. But in the same breath I love the peace and quiet and not having someone follow me around. I still feel weird renting a room on the bottom of someone's house but I had to get out of living with my bf that was just not working at all. I miss my kids so much though that it makes it hard to get my brain to shut down to go to sleep. I know that I am doing this to better our lives but a part of me feels so bad having them stay in Ohio while I get things going down here. One day I am ready to go back to Ohio and the next I am staying in Florida. I hate having this struggle within myself.