so confused

I am having trouble sleeping tonight. I leave for Florida tomorrow without my kids. I know that I am doing this so I can work my butt off so I can get them down there with me. I dont know how I am going to survive without them. I think that this is going to be THE hardest thing I will ever have to do in my life. Part of me doesnt want to go but I dont have a job here and with the way the job market is its hard to tell how long it would take me to get another job. I have a job in Florida just not enough money to get a place big enough for all 3 of us to live in. I dont want to be without my kids but I am trying to better their lives and sometimes we have to make sacrifices that we dont want to make to meet our goals. I know I am going to be a mess tomorrow having to say good bye to them for what seems like is going to be forever but I will work all day and night if it means that they move there with me sooner than later. I love my kids with all of my heart and soul and I dont know that I can move 1300 miles away for a couple of months until I can get them down there with me. I have a feeling that I will go back to Florida and decide that I cant be without them and just come back to Ohio. I will be miserable but at least I will be with my kids.