stressed beyond belief

I feel like I am going to throw up, I am that stressed right now. I so want to be in Florida but I do not want to be here without my kids. I dont want to be in Ohio but that is where my kids are. I can stay down here and do the original plan and work my butt off and get us a place and then bring them down but you are talking like 6 months before that will happen. Then on the other hand, I can go back to Ohio, if I can work it out to get my son to come down for like 3 days and then I could fly back with him and just stay in Ohio. I would have to look for another job but I would be living in my own house and not paying someone else's mortgage again. Lord I do not know what to do. I wish I had a crystal ball so I could see what the future for me and my kids is. That would make this whole process a little easier to handle. I just dont want my kids thinking that I have abandoned them or that I dont want to be with them. I want to be with them so much but I had to do this for me because I was(am) miserable in Ohio. I feel that if I leave Florida and go back to Ohio that I am a failure so I feel screwed no matter what choice I make. I am so not sure what I am going to do but I do know that I am not going to rush this decision. I dont think that it would be wise because I rushed the move here and that didnt work out so well for me as of yet. Maybe I will stay for a couple of months and then I will go back but that puts me going back in the freaking cold winter months and that is what I am trying to avoid is the winters in Ohio. Yeah so not sure what I am going to do.