Thursday, August 27, 2009

life sucks the big one at times

I am so depressed right now that I really dont even know what to do. I miss my kids so much and just want to hug and kiss them and hold them forever. The only reason I am staying in Florida is because I have a job here and not in Ohio. I am seriously thinking of going back to Ohio tho because I am working here but not making any money at all! Then my sister tells me that Ohio is supposed to have a very cold winter this year and that is something that I want to avoid. If I had my car I could find a better paying job and not be so stressed like I am right now. I really hope that my friend that I am going to talk to tomorrow may let me borrow $500 to get my car fixed. I dont know what I am going to do if he doesnt. Nothing is ever easy for me. No matter what decision I make or what road I take it always gets messed up! I am so tired of having bad luck only that its really starting to get to me. I should have gotten that $100 bonus at work but no that didnt even work out.
I want to go home and surprise my kids for their birthday party but I dont know how I am going to do that and pay rent and pay the phone bill. That will leave me with like $5 for 2 weeks. So life sucks the big one right now.

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